Carrying Her Heart

I am dedicating this site to my beloved daughter Rachel whose earthly life ended on Sept. 17,2009.This is just a glimpse of the path I walk through this journey of grief.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

God bless you

Monday I was in Hobby Lobby and I found this garden statue..



She is supposed to have wings, they were nowhere to be found. They had one other just like her on the shelf, but her wings were chipped.I decided I liked the one with no wings, I was really just interested in the Calla lilies. I brought her up to the front to see what kind of "deal" they would make on her. The young lady at the check out just couldn't understand why I would want this broken statue. I tried to just stand and smile hoping for a great reduction in the price. I didn't want to tell them WHY I needed it. I didn't want to use my sadness to try to get a bargain.Finally, the price was said, she was wrapped up in paper,and I was ready to go.As I was paying I told the sweet young lady why I needed that statue so bad. I told her that I would probably just turn it into a planter and put it out at my daughters grave. I don't remember seeing someone that I don't even know, be so deeply affected by my words. She wanted to know more but didn't know how to ask ,or if was okay to ask ..her eyes were so full of emotion. She very cautiously asked me what happended and then she asked "how old is your daughter". I was very aware that she didn't put Rachel in the past tense. I told her that she was 19 .She looked hard into my eyes and very slowly said " SHE WAS JUST A BABY". I have heard those words over and over in my head.I don't remember hearing them before.Maybe its just been awhile. Of course I 've heard the words young, too young...teenager...it was just something about the way this young girl spoke them. By now she had at least 5 people in her line waiting. She very slowly finished my transaction, and then walked around the counter and gave me the best hug. Her last words to me were "God bless you". So tonight as I sit and write this, I had typed in the words "God bless you" in the search box just to see what comes up.The first thing I clicked on brought me to this page with a poem and pictures of .....
CALLA LILIES!

Here is the poem. I couldn't copy the photos so I added the link .If you would like to visit it, click on the title. What a great ending to very hard day.

I seek in prayerful words, dear friend,
My heart’s true wish to send you,
That you may know that, far or near,
My loving thoughts attend you.

I cannot find a truer word,
Nor better to address you;
Nor song, nor poem have I heard
Is sweeter than God bless you!

God bless you! So I’ve wished you all
Of brightness life possesses;
For can there any joy at all
Be yours unless God blesses?

God bless you! So I breathe a charm
Lest grief’s dark night oppress you,
For how can sorrow bring you harm
If ’tis God’s way to bless you?

And so, “through all thy days
May shadows touch thee never-”
But this alone – God bless thee-
Then art thou safe forever.

Author Unknown

3 comments:

  1. And so God did Bless You with the girl & it took you to His next perfect gift of a poem with Rachel's favorite flower....He is with you! GOD BLESS YOU

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  2. …every morning I open you and Rachel’s site… every new post brings me such a blessing… this one touched me more than words can say.

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