The Light

While we were at the lake during spring break,I wrote a couple more poems/songs. Sometimes I sit and try to write and just stare at the computer forever...and nothing happens.Then I will be in the car, or just be caught up in doing several things and somehow through all the noise I hear the words .Being at the lake was very hard.As I write that sentence I hear in my mind "DUH">>.Of course it was hard,its ALL hard.Anyway, I was sitting in the room late one night watching a Roseanne marathon, which made me miss Rach even more.We spent many hours together watching that show, many hours laughing together.I wrote these words very quickly.As I always say =keep in mind this is a rough draft. Maybe one day my "accompanist" can put some more of these to music like she did "Beautiful One"..I hope when you read these you understand some of what I am going through.Maybe you know someone else who is grieving and it helps you to understand what they are feeling.I try to be as honest as I can about where I am right now ,in this moment. This is my journal.I open it to you because I have never in my life felt the things I am feeling, and if my words help someone else to understand that it is OK , it is OK to be sad , it is OK to cry till you think your eyeballs will just pop out. Just keep holding on to your precious Savior.Just keep breathing, and taking one MINUTE at a time ,and if that is too much then do one second.Just keep feeling and keep praying.." He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak."

Here I am once again
finding myself giving in
to all the pain I'm living in
since your not here with me.

Trying to find a way to breathe
when every day your all I see,
and everything I hoped to be
was what I saw in you.


Show me how to see the light
tell me it will be all right.
Take my hand and lead me
to where the dark cant find me...anymore.


I think about you all the time
your name is always on my mind,
and all the dreams you left behind
will live here in my heart.


I think that things would be all right
if I could only tell you bye
or say I love you one more time
and hold you in my arms.





Show me how to see the light
tell me it will be all right.
Take my hand and lead me
to where the dark cant find me...anymore.